The Leaves Conundrum
Over the last few weeks, I have observed with curiosity how my neighbors deal with all the leaves falling from their trees. One neighbor in particular has caught my eye. Every Saturday, I see him outside in his front yard with an old rake, slowly but steadily gathering his leaves into piles. His activity draws a stark contrast to the rest of us around him. There are some neighbors that employ the periodic services of yard crews who come in with high-powered leaf blowers and vacuums, other neighbors who have their children out doing the hard labor for them. And then other neighbors like me…who are still waiting for the last leaf to drop!
Even if you might frown on this tactic, I’m sure you can appreciate its logic! Why put in the back-breaking hours if all that you have done is just going to be undone in another week’s time?
And yet that is precisely what my one neighbor does. He seems completely unbothered by the fact that his work will be undone. Instead, he seems content to be doing his work, week after week.
Contamination or Purification?
The first half of today’s scripture is a relatively well known passage. The prophet Isaiah has a breathtaking vision of God—or rather the hem of God’s robe filling the temple. Immediately he feels unworthy. Unclean. In ancient Israel, the prevailing theology held that God was holy, and that any little impurity allowed into God’s presence would contaminate God’s holiness and result in disaster. It’s the same logic as “one bad apple spoils the barrel.”
Isaiah is afraid that his uncleanness and the uncleanness of Israel will spark a catastrophic reaction with God’s holiness, perhaps even resulting in his death. But what happens is quite the opposite. This is the beginning of Isaiah’s life! One of God’s attendants, a seraph (and just what a seraph is, will have to wait for another day), brings a live coal to Isaiah’s lips and declares him purified of guilt and sin. In other words, Isaiah did not contaminate God, God purified Isaiah. This is the reverse of a little rottenness spoiling the rest. Rather, as a little disinfectant cleans the rest, so God’s presence purifies Isaiah and makes him well.
Some Head-Scratching Instructions
Many readers of scripture have observed a parallel between Isaiah and Peter. When Peter stands before Jesus for the first time, he recognizes Jesus’ holiness and is afraid: “Go away from me, Lord, for I am a sinful man!” But Jesus dismisses his concern and reverses it. He draws near to Peter and entrusts him with a sacred task: “From now on you will be catching people.” And Peter follows him. In the same way, in today’s scripture Isaiah feels encouraged and emboldened. When he hears God call out, “Who will go for us?” his hand shoots up like an eager student. “Here am I; send me!”
What follows, however, is positively perplexing. God issues a head-scratching assignment, which basically amounts to Isaiah prophesying to an unreceptive audience. To ears that will be stopped up, to minds that will be closed, to hearts that will be shut. God’s instructions basically amount to Isaiah working hard and then seeing all his work undone.
Why? Why would God ask Isaiah to do something that will be ineffective and unsuccessful? Why work hard for something when all your work will be undone?
Not Results, but Witness
I imagine that when Isaiah said, “Here am I!” he was filled with adrenaline and purpose. I imagine he was thinking, “Alright! I’m going to go out into the world and make a difference!” God knows the world around him needed some positive change. In the eighth century BCE, Israel was beginning to fall apart. On the outside, things may have looked pretty good. Celebrated kings like David and Solomon had earlier expanded the borders and accumulated a lot of wealth. But if we take some other prophets at their word, we see that the riches and power of Israel had come at the cost of grave injustice. Amos cries out that Israel are “trampl[ing] the head of the poor into the dust of the earth and push[ing] the afflicted out of the way” (Amos 1:7), that some are living lazily in luxury—singing “idle songs” and “drink[ing] wine from bowls” and “anoint[ing] themselves with the finest oils”—without any concern for the suffering around them (Amos 6:5-6).
I imagine Isaiah looked out upon a corrupt and degenerate nation and thought, “I’m going to make a difference!”
God’s assignment would have burst his bubble, to say the least. But if we pay close attention, God’s assignment also reveals quite a lot about the way God goes about God’s work in the world. It reveals a lot about God’s spirit.
To put it in a nutshell: God is not about results. God is about witness. “Who will go for us?” God had asked, suggesting that whoever goes, goes as a witness, a representative. “Who will go for us? Who will represent us? Who will be our ambassador in the world?”
“Be a Difference”
I think Isaiah’s initial proclamation, “Here am I!” is a fundamental posture of our faith. When God calls Abraham, when God calls Moses, when God calls Samuel, they all respond, Hinneni, “Here I am!” But what we discover in today’s scripture is that “Here am I!” does not mean, “I will make a difference.” It means something more humble and more profound. “I will be a difference.”
If we think about the phrase itself, “Here am I,” we discover it makes no claim on other people. No claim on the future. No claim on the outside world. It makes no claim on control over anything except “I,” “me.” “Here am I” is not about the future but the present; not about others, but about me; not about control, but about responsibility; not about results, but about witness. It is saying not, “I will make a difference,” but only, “I will be a difference.”
We see this in Jesus himself. As Paul puts it in the first chapter of his letter to the Corinthians, to the outside world, Jesus was ineffective, useless, “weak,” “foolish.” The outside world looked around itself, and everything looked the same. If Jesus had raked the metaphorical front yard, the leaves had covered it once more. The poor were still poor. The rich were still rich. Caesar still ruled the world with his sword.
But as Paul says, what looks like foolishness and weakness to the world is salvation for followers of Christ. It was not so much that Jesus had made a difference as that he was a difference. It didn’t matter to Jesus what the results were, he would live his way all the same. And his way was different. In a word, his witness, his way was not control but care.
I’m afraid that the recent election cycle has invited us all to see salvation as force from above, as powerful people who make changes that affect us for the better or for the worse. As a result, some people are celebrating and hopeful, and others are grieving and in despair. But as followers of Christ, we are called like Isaiah not to look for a God who will make a difference, but to be a difference ourselves. To become a part of God’s difference. To live a different way. We are called not to remove the leaves once and for all, but to rake regularly in the faith that the work itself is good and making us well, whatever else it’s doing. We are called to surrender the expectation for results and to trust in God’s love—which is either foolishness or salvation, depending on how you look at it.
Prayer
Holy God,
Whose love we know
Not through force or the effectiveness of powerful people,
But through the quiet, enduring witness of Christ—
Inspire us with the spirit that came upon Isaiah,
Not to make a difference
But to be a difference,
To become a part of your difference,
Living not by control but by care.
In Christ, whose love gives us life: Amen.