(Homily for Gayton Road Christian Church's Worship on August 26, 2018, Proper 16)
Gaps in Our World
Pause your life. Freeze it. Take your remote and stop everything for a minute. Inside you is a world. A world of plans. After church, you will eat lunch. You’ll catch up on errands you didn’t
have time for in the week. A world
of expectations. In fall, the
leaves will change color and the temperatures will drop. At the end of a pay period, you’ll get
a paycheck. A world of decisions
to make. Maybe in the future
you’ll be buying a new car or a new home.
Do you buy this one or that one?
A world of possibility. Maybe you’ll change jobs. Maybe you’ll make a new friend.
Inside you is a world. What you think. What you anticipate. What decisions you’re ready for.
This world inside you is
closed. Finished. Complete. If you took the remote and resumed play and everything ran
according to plan, then the future would really only be a foregone conclusion:
a natural unfolding of the present, a foreseeable development, a potential
eventually to be realized. At the
beginning of the 20th century, as industrialization and advances in
science promised a society of comfort and convenience, many people understood the
world in just this way. The
future, they thought, was already written. They boldly predicted and planned for a century of peace and
pleasure.
After two world wars, multiple
genocides, continued struggles with hunger, and an increasing gap between the
rich and the poor, we’ve conceded that maybe there was more to the world than
we could see or know. As the world
inside us began to play out, there were shocks and surprises. Things we did not foresee. Things we could not plan for. Our world, it appeared, had gaps and
cracks.
God on High
I must confess that I have a hard
time with the traditional imagery of God on high, of heaven as God’s dwelling
place. Which is exactly what we
find in our scripture today, where King Solomon dedicates his newly built
temple to God. Twice in our
scripture, and twice more in the surrounding verses that are not included,
Solomon prays to God: “Hear in heaven your dwelling place” (1 Kings 8:30, 39,
43, 49).
The imagery doesn’t resonate with
me because it sits at odds with my faith experience. I have only ever encountered God on the ground level. From the moment I was born, when as a
helpless infant I was held close and loved in the flesh by the people around
me. As I grew up, when I was given
more second chances by my parents and teachers and coaches and friends than I
can count. As I meet with you each
Sunday, when we gather around this Table and share not only bread and cup but
our trust in a life that is greater than death. In all these things, I have encountered God on my level.
Or as we’ll say around Christmas
time, “Emmanuel”—God is with us.
Or as Christ said, “Where two or three gather in my name, I am there
with them” (Matt 18:20) or, “Whatever you did to the least of these, you did to
me” (Matt 25:40). Or as Paul says,
“You are the body of Christ” (1 Cor 12:27).
Heaven is God’s dwelling
place? My faith and my hope are
that all the world is God’s dwelling place. Emmanuel. God
is with us.
Heaven as the Gaps in Our World
But maybe I’m being unfair. Maybe like “lamb of God” or “bread of
life,” God “in heaven” is metaphor.
After all, what would it even mean that God dwells on high in the
heavens? Where exactly? If everyone on earth pointed up, we’d
all be pointing in different directions.
I wonder if our own expressions
about the heavens don’t point us in the right direction, toward what this
metaphor really means. Expressions
like “Heaven knows,” which means I don’t.
Or “Heaven help me,” which means I can’t do it myself. Or “It fell straight from heaven,”
which means it came out of nowhere.
All of these expressions suggest
our inability and our ignorance.
Heaven is shorthand for I don’t know everything, I can’t do this on my
own, I didn’t see that
happening. Heaven is the opposite
of the world that is inside us, the world that we know and plan for and
anticipate, the world that is closed and complete. Heaven is the gaps and cracks in our world.
Which if we are honest, are our
only real hope of salvation. I
think the reason that Solomon keeps praying to God in heaven—and the reason that Jesus keeps talking about the flesh
needing something else, needing spirit—is
that they know that the world inside us, the world that we know and prepare for
and expect, is actually small and shortsighted. Just ask the hopeful who predicted paradise at the start of
the twentieth century. What we
know, what already exists, what we can see coming—these things won’t save
us. It’s what we don’t know, what
doesn’t exist, what we can’t see coming—it’s God, in a word, or “heaven,” if
you like, that will save us.
Death…and Resurrection
If you’ve ever held onto a
grudge, or hidden a lie, or simply hogged what you could have been sharing, you
know just how important “heaven”—the gaps and cracks in our world—is. Because holding onto a grudge is holding
onto the world that we know, the world where we’re right and the other person
is wrong. And hiding a lie is
preserving the world that we want, the world where we are accomplished and
admired and accepted. And hogging
what we could be sharing is protecting our world of plans and possibilities, the
world where we’ve worked hard and earned it and deserve whatever we can afford.
In each case, we are clinging to
the world that we know. But then
there are cracks and gaps, thank God.
Have you ever held onto a grudge only to have your opponent give you the
nicest compliment? And it destroys
your world…before opening up a new one where you have one more friend than
before. Or have you ever hidden a
lie only to have it exposed? And
for that split second it feels unbearable…but then all of the sudden you can
breathe and the weight of the lie is lifted and then in this truth it feels
like you’ve been set free. Or have
you ever hogged something only then to share a little bit begrudgingly? And at first maybe it feels like your
world is lost…but then you enter into a new world richer and fuller and
friendlier than before.
When heaven breaks through the
gaps and cracks in our world, it often feels like this, doesn’t it? A little bit like death…and then
resurrection.
Salvation from Outside
Emmanuel. God is with us. But we can ignore God just as easily as
we can ignore our neighbor.
For this reason, I think, King
Solomon prayed, “Hear us in heaven!”
For this reason, we say, “Heaven knows!”, “Heaven help me!” Heaven is our way of confessing I don’t
know everything, I can’t do this on my own, I didn’t see that happening. Heaven
is our way of inviting what we can’t see coming, of celebrating the gaps and
cracks in our world. Heaven is our
way of praying for a world bigger than our grudges, freer than our fictions,
rich beyond riches. Heaven is our
highest prayer—not as an escape from earth, but as redemption for earth: “On earth
as it is in heaven.” It is this
salvation from outside, Jesus says, that actually gives us life. “The flesh is useless”—“it is the spirit that gives life” (John 6:63). Patience, gentleness, forgiveness—these
fruits of the spirit come not through our willpower and determination, but from
our surrender to something beyond us.
God, in a word—or “heaven,” if you’d like.
Prayer
God of the gaps,
Who breaks into our world
In the openings
Of nonexistence,
In what we cannot see coming,
In what we do not know—
Hear us in heaven
And save us.
Lead us beyond
The world we cling to.
Lead us in the way
Of death and resurrection.
In the name of him whose spirit
gives life, Jesus Christ. Amen.
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